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  considering their lives and making decisions,

  the certainty that they are doing this at all—

  that alters everything.

  Do you give a thought now and again to the

  essential sparrow, the necessary toad?

  Just as truly as the earth is ours, we belong

  to it. The tissue of our minds is made of it,

  and the soles of our feet, as fully as the

  tiger’s claw, the branch of the whitebark pine,

  the voices of the birds, the dog-tooth violet

  and the tooth of the dog.

  Have you ever seen a squirrel swim? I have.

  Is it not incredible, that in the acorn something

  has hidden an entire tree?

  “For there is nothing that grows or lives that

  can approach the feathery grace, the symmetry

  of form, or the lacy elegance of pattern of the

  Ferns: and to be blind to all this beauty is

  nothing less than calamitous.”

  In Australia there is a cloud called The

  Morning Glory.

  Okay, I confess to wanting to make a literature

  of praise.

  2.

  Where are you when you’re not thinking?

  Frightening, isn’t it?

  Where are you when you’re not feeling anything?

  Oh, worse!

  Except for faith and imagination, nature is that

  hard fortress you can’t get out of.

  Some persons are captive to love, others would

  make the beloved a captive. Which one are you?

  I think I have not lived a single hour of my life

  by calculation.

  There are in this world a lot of devils with wondrous

  smiles. Also, many unruly angels.

  The life of the body is, I suppose, along with

  everything else, a lesson. I mean, if lessons are

  what you look for.

  Faith: this is the engine of my head, my breast

  bone, my toes.

  3.

  It is salvation if one can step forth from the

  clutter of one’s mind into that open space—

  that almost holy space—called work.

  Emerson: how the elegance of his language can

  make me weep over my own inadequacy.

  Music: what so many sentences aspire to be.

  Or, how sweet just to say of a great, burly

  man: he’s a honey.

  Or of the fox: his neat trot. The donkey, his

  sorrowful plodding. The cheetah: his clean leap.

  The alligator: his lunge.

  Do you hear the rustle and outcry on the page?

  Do you hear its longing?

  Words are too wonderful for words. The vibrant

  translation of things to ideas. Hello there.

  My best greetings to you.

  Lord, there are so many fires, so many words, in

  my heart. It’s going to take something I can’t

  even imagine, to put them all out.

  4.

  Let laughter come to you now and again, that

  sturdy friend.

  The impulse to leap off the cliff, when the

  body falsely imagines it might fly, may be

  restrained by reason, also by modesty. Of the

  two possibilities, take your choice, and live.

  Refuse all cooperation with the heart’s death.

  5.

  Sing, if you can sing, and if not still be

  musical inside yourself.

  Whispered Poem

  I have been risky in my endeavors,

  I have been steadfast in my loves;

  Oh Lord, consider these when you judge me.

  The Poet Is Told to Fill Up More Pages

  But, where are the words?

  Not in my pocket.

  Not in the refrigerator.

  Not in my savings account.

  So I sit, harassed, with my notebook.

  It’s a joke, really, and not a good one.

  For fun I try a few commands myself.

  I say to the rain, stop raining.

  I say to the sun, that isn’t anywhere nearby,

  Come back, and come fast.

  Nothing happens.

  So this is all I can give you,

  not being the maker of what I do,

  but only the one that holds the pencil.

  abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.

  Make of it what you will.

  AFTERWORD

  Percy

  (2002–2009)

  This—I said to Percy when I had left

  our bed and gone

  out onto the living room couch where

  he found me apparently doing nothing—this

  is called thinking.

  It’s something people do,

  not being entirely children of the earth,

  like a dog or a tree or a flower.

  His eyes questioned such an activity.

  Well, okay, he said. If you say so. Whatever

  it is. Actually

  I like kissing better.

  And next to me,

  tucked down his curly head

  and, sweet as a flower, slept.

  NOTES

  The Rilke epigraph is from the Ninth Elegy,

  translation by C. F. MacIntyre.

  The last line of the poem titled “Swan”

  remembers the final sentence of Rilke’s

  poem “Archaic Torso of Apollo” as translated

  by Robert Bly: “You must change your life.”

  The quotation in “More Evidence (1)” is by

  Herbert Durand, from The Field Book of

  Common Ferns (G. P. Putnam’s Sons, 1928).

  Page 45, the author acknowledges Gerard Manley

  Hopkins’ poem “Hurrahing in Harvest.”

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  My thanks to the editors of the following magazines in which some of the poems, sometimes in slightly different form, have previously appeared.

  Appalachia: “A Fox in the Dark,” “More of the Unfinishable

  Fox Story,” “The Last Word About Fox (Maybe),” “Trees”

  Bark: “Percy Wakes Me,” “The Sweetness of Dogs,” “Percy”

  Michigan Quarterly: “Swan”

  Onearth: “Beans Green and Yellow”

  Orion: “How Heron Comes”

  Parabola: “Passing the Unworked Field,” “April,” “Mist in the Morning, Nothing Around Me but Sand and Roses,” “When,” “In Your Hands”

  Shenandoah: “Just Around the House, Early in the Morning,” “Tom Dancer’s Gift of a Whitebark Pine Cone,” “The Poet Dreams of the Mountain,” “Trying to Be Thoughtful in the First Brights of Dawn”

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  © 2010 by Mary Oliver

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  uncoated paper ANSI/NISO specifications for permanence

  as revised in 1992.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Oliver, Mary,

  Swan : poems and prose poems / Mary Oliver.

  p. cm.

  ISBN 978-0-8070-6899-1 (alk. paper)

  E-ISBN 978-0-8070-6901-1

  I. Title.

  PS3565.L5S93 2010

  811’.54—dc22 2010009191

 

 

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