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  and decay, and rebirth,

  and know my vision for a falsehood.

  Now I see him coming from the house —

  I see him on his knees,

  cutting away the diseased, the superfluous,

  coaxing the new,

  knowing that the hour of fulfillment

  is buried in years of patience —

  yet willing to labor like that

  on the mortal wheel.

  Oh, what good it does the heart

  to know it isn’t magic!

  Like the human child I am

  I rush to imitate —

  I watch him as he bends

  among the leaves and vines

  to hook some weed or other;

  even when I do not see him,

  I think of him there

  raking and trimming, stirring up

  those sheets of fire

  between the smothering weights of earth,

  the wild and shapeless air.

  II

  ORION

  I love Orion, his fiery body, his ten stars,

  his flaring points of reference, his shining dogs.

  “It is winter,” he says.

  “We must eat,” he says. Our gloomy

  and passionate teacher.

  Miles below

  in the cold woods, with the mouse and the owl,

  with the clearness of water sheeted and hidden,

  with the reason for the wind forever a secret,

  he descends and sits with me, his voice

  like the snapping of bones.

  Behind him

  everything is so black and unclassical; behind him

  I don’t know anything, not even

  my own mind.

  ONE OR TWO THINGS

  1

  Don’t bother me.

  I’ve just

  been born.

  2

  The butterfly’s loping flight

  carries it through the country of the leaves

  delicately, and well enough to get it

  where it wants to go, wherever that is, stopping

  here and there to fuzzle the damp throats

  of flowers and the black mud; up

  and down it swings, frenzied and aimless; and sometimes

  for long delicious moments it is perfectly

  lazy, riding motionless in the breeze on the soft stalk

  of some ordinary flower.

  3

  The god of dirt

  came up to me many times and said

  so many wise and delectable things, I lay

  on the grass listening

  to his dog voice,

  crow voice,

  frog voice; now,

  he said, and now,

  and never once mentioned forever,

  4

  which has nevertheless always been,

  like a sharp iron hoof,

  at the center of my mind.

  5

  One or two things are all you need

  to travel over the blue pond, over the deep

  roughage of the trees and through the stiff

  flowers of lightning — some deep

  memory of pleasure, some cutting

  knowledge of pain.

  6

  But to lift the hoof!

  For that you need

  an idea.

  7

  For years and years I struggled

  just to love my life. And then

  the butterfly

  rose, weightless, in the wind.

  “Don’t love your life

  too much,” it said,

  and vanished

  into the world.

  POEM

  The spirit

  likes to dress up like this:

  ten fingers,

  ten toes,

  shoulders, and all the rest

  at night

  in the black branches,

  in the morning

  in the blue branches

  of the world.

  It could float, of course,

  but would rather

  plumb rough matter.

  Airy and shapeless thing,

  it needs

  the metaphor of the body,

  lime and appetite,

  the oceanic fluids;

  it needs the body’s world,

  instinct

  and imagination

  and the dark hug of time,

  sweetness

  and tangibility,

  to be understood,

  to be more than pure light

  that burns

  where no one is —

  so it enters us —

  in the morning

  shines from brute comfort

  like a stitch of lightning;

  and at night

  lights up the deep and wondrous

  drownings of the body

  like a star.

  MARSH HAWKS

  In the morning they glide

  just above the rough plush

  of the marshlands,

  as though on leashes,

  long-tailed and with

  yard-wide wings

  tipped upward, like

  dark Vs; then they suddenly fall

  in response to their wish,

  which is always the same —

  to succeed again and again.

  What they eat

  is neither fruit nor grain,

  what they cry out

  is sharper than a sharp word.

  At night they don’t exist, except

  in our dreams, where they fly

  like mad things, unleashed

  and endlessly hungry.

  But in the day

  they are always there gliding

  and when they descend to the marsh

  they are swift, and then so quiet

  they could be anything —

  a rock, an uprise of earth,

  a scrap of fallen tree,

  a patch of flowers

  casting their whirling shadow.

  BOWING TO THE EMPRESS

  Through the forest,

  through the branches

  of shagbarks and walnuts,

  through the feathers

  of the February snow,

  she flows

  to her nest

  of a thousand

  broken and braided sticks,

  to her chicks

  yelping like tiny wolves,

  like downy

  emperors for her return,

  for her attention,

  for red meat,

  and you know

  theirs is a decent task

  in the scheme of things —

  the hunters,

  the rapacious

  plucking up the timid

  like so many soft jewels.

  They are what keeps everything

  enough, but not too many —

  and so you bow

  to the lightning of her eyes,

  the pick of her beak,

  the swale of her appetite,

  and even to her shadow

  over the field — when it passes

  you can hardly breathe,

  the world is that bright,

  your senses so sharply tuned

  by the notion of oblivion —

  those black wings beating

  at the light.

  THE TURTLE

  breaks from the blue-black

  skin of the water, dragging her shell

  with its mossy scutes

  across the shallows and through the rushes

  and over the mudflats, to the uprise,

  to the yellow sand,

  to dig with her ungainly feet

  a nest, and hunker there spewing

  her white eggs down

  into the darkness, and you think

  of her patience, her fortitude,

  her determination to complete

  what she was born to do —
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  and then you realize a greater thing —

  she doesn’t consider

  what she was born to do.

  She’s only filled

  with an old blind wish.

  It isn’t even hers but came to her

  in the rain or the soft wind,

  which is a gate through which her life keeps walking.

  She can’t see

  herself apart from the rest of the world

  or the world from what she must do

  every spring.

  Crawling up the high hill,

  luminous under the sand that has packed against her skin,

  she doesn’t dream,

  she knows

  she is a part of the pond she lives in,

  the tall trees are her children,

  the birds that swim above her

  are tied to her by an unbreakable string.

  SUNRISE

  You can

  die for it —

  an idea,

  or the world. People

  have done so,

  brilliantly,

  letting

  their small bodies be bound

  to the stake,

  creating

  an unforgettable

  fury of light. But

  this morning,

  climbing the familiar hills

  in the familiar

  fabric of dawn, I thought

  of China,

  and India

  and Europe, and I thought

  how the sun

  blazes

  for everyone just

  so joyfully

  as it rises

  under the lashes

  of my own eyes, and I thought

  I am so many!

  What is my name?

  What is the name

  of the deep breath I would take

  over and over

  for all of us? Call it

  whatever you want, it is

  happiness, it is another one

  of the ways to enter

  fire.

  TWO KINDS OF DELIVERANCE

  1

  Last night the geese came back,

  slanting fast

  from the blossom of the rising moon down

  to the black pond. A muskrat

  swimming in the twilight saw them and hurried

  to the secret lodges to tell everyone

  spring had come.

  And so it had.

  By morning when I went out

  the last of the ice had disappeared, blackbirds

  sang on the shores. Every year

  the geese, returning,

  do this, I don’t

  know how.

  2

  The curtains opened and there was

  an old man in a headdress of feathers,

  leather leggings and a vest made

  from the skin of some animal. He danced

  in a kind of surly rapture, and the trees

  in the fields far away

  began to mutter and suck up their long roots.

  Slowly they advanced until they stood

  pressed to the schoolhouse windows.

  3

  I don’t know

  lots of things but I know this: next year

  when spring

  flows over the starting point I’ll think I’m going to

  drown in the shimmering miles of it and then

  one or two birds will fly me over

  the threshold.

  As for the pain

  of others, of course it tries to be

  abstract, but then

  there flares up out of a vanished wilderness, like fire,

  still blistering: the wrinkled face

  of an old Chippewa

  smiling, hating us,

  dancing for his life.

  THE SWIMMER

  All winter the water

  has crashed over

  the cold sand. Now

  it breaks over the thin

  branch of your body.

  You plunge down, you swim

  two or three strokes, you dream

  of lingering

  in the luminous undertow

  but can’t; you splash

  through the bursting

  white blossoms,

  the silk sheets — gasping,

  you rise and struggle

  lightward, finding your way

  through the blue ribs back

  to the sun, and emerge

  as though for the first time.

  Poor fish,

  poor flesh,

  you can never forget.

  Once every wall was water,

  the soft strings filled

  with a perfect nourishment,

  pumping your body full

  of appetite, elaborating

  your stubby bones, tucking in,

  like stars,

  the seeds of restlessness

  that made you, finally,

  swim toward the world,

  kicking and shouting

  but trailing a mossy darkness —

  a dream that would never breathe air

  and was hinged to your wildest joy

  like a shadow.

  MILKWEED

  The milkweed now with their many pods are standing

  like a country of dry women.

  The wind lifts their flat leaves and drops them.

  This is not kind, but they retain a certain crisp glamour;

  moreover, it’s easy to believe

  each one was once young and delicate, also

  frightened; also capable

  of a certain amount of rough joy.

  I wish you would walk with me out into the world.

  I wish you could see what has to happen, how

  each one crackles like a blessing

  over its thin children as they rush away.

  THE WAVES

  The sea

  isn’t a place

  but a fact, and

  a mystery

  under its green and black

  cobbled coat that never

  stops moving.

  When death

  happens on land, on some

  hairpin piece of road,

  we crawl past,

  imagining

  over and over that moment

  of disaster. After the storm

  the other boats didn’t

  hesitate — they spun out

  from the rickety pier, the men

  bent to the nets or turning

  the weedy winches.

  Surely the sea

  is the most beautiful fact

  in our universe, but

  you won’t find a fisherman

  who will say so;

  what they say is,

  See you later.

  Gulls white as angels scream

  as they float in the sun

  just off the sterns;

  everything is here

  that you could ever imagine.

  And the bones

  of the drowned fisherman

  are returned, half a year later,

  in the glittering,

  laden nets.

  LANDSCAPE

  Isn’t it plain the sheets of moss, except that

  they have no tongues, could lecture

  all day if they wanted about

  spiritual patience? Isn’t it clear

  the black oaks along the path are standing

  as though they were the most fragile of flowers?

  Every morning I walk like this around

  the pond, thinking: if the doors of my heart

  ever close, I am as good as dead.

  Every morning, so far, I’m alive. And now

  the crows break off from the rest of the darkness

  and burst up into the sky — as though

  all night they had thought of what they would like

  their lives to be, and imagined

  their strong, thic
k wings.

  THE SHARK

  The domed head rose above the water, white

  as a spill of milk. It had taken the hook. It swirled,

  and all they could see then was the grinding

  and breaking of water, its thrashing, the teeth

  in the grin and grotto of its impossible mouth.

  The line they refused to cut ran down like a birth cord

  into the packed and strategic muscles.

  The sun shone.

  It was not a large boat. The beast plunged

  with all it had caught onto, deep

  under the green waves — a white

  retching thing, it turned

  toward the open sea. And it was hours before

  they came home, hauling their bloody prize,

  well-gaffed. A hundred gulls followed,

  picking at the red streams,

  as it sang its death song of vomit and bubbles,

  as the blood ran from its mouth

  that had no speech to rail against this matter —

  speech, that gives us all there may be of the future —

  speech, that makes all the difference, we like to say.

  And I say: in the wilderness of our wit

  we will all cry out last words — heave and spit them

  into the shattering universe someday, to someone.

  Whoever He is, count on it: He won’t answer.

  The inventor is like the hunter — each

  in the crease and spasm of the thing about to be done

  is lost in his work. All else is peripheral,

  remote, unfelt. The connections have broken.

  Consider the evening:

  the shark winched into the air; men

  lifting the last bloody hammers.

  And Him, somewhere, ponderously lifting another world,

  setting it free to spin, if it can,

  in a darkness you can’t imagine.

  STORM IN MASSACHUSETTS, SEPTEMBER 1982

  A hot day,

  a clear heaven — then

  clouds bulge

  over the horizon

  and the wind turns

  like a hundred black swans

  and the first faint noise

  begins.

  I think

  of my good life,

  I think

  of other lives

  being blown apart

  in field after distant field.